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July 21, 2011

Ello? Is this thing on?

It is! It’s been a while since I’ve shown my mug around here, and I figured it was time to quit being a lurker on my own blog and make an appearance, so…

… hullo!

Sorry. I’m just a little excited. And no, it’s not because I found a new place to live while condo shopping this afternoon. I’m still waiting to be hit with that “omigosh this is it!” feeling when I walk through the front door, and so far… nada 😦

BUT! I didn’t come home empty handed…

I came home with Essie! (in Sugar Daddy and Limo-Scene)

This may not seem like a big deal to those of you who live south of the border, but I haven’t been able to find this brand of nail polish anywhereΒ up here in Canadaland, and when I saw it (in the grocery store, of all places…) I did a double take and immediately snatched up a couple. I needed some light pink polish anyways, so… yay πŸ˜€

But back to feeling excited. I have no idea why, but I’ve just been feeling so flippin’ happy lately. Always smiling. Always walking around with a little extra pep in my step. Often times bouncing off the walls. I feel like I’m on a constant high but I’m completely sober… unless, of course, someone’s been slipping me something without my knowing it, in which case… thank you?

πŸ˜†Β Nawwwww, can’t be that (I hope).

Maybe it’s all the sunshine that I’ve been taking in during the day…

… or falling asleep to the sound of rain hitting my window at night…

Maybe it’s all the time that I’ve spent lost in good books…

[I finished this today, and it completely blew me away. The message is so profound, yet it’s written in such a simple way. Beautiful contrast. I highly recommend picking it up.]

Or maybe it’s all the good food that I’ve been eating…

[Chocolate Vitamuffin with Greek yogurt and almond butter frosting]

[Sweet potato fries with an Amy’s Texas burger and almond butter]

[Fresh cherries]

[Β½ cup vanilla almond milk, 1 Tbsp. cocoa, 1 frozen banana, 1 Tbsp. almond butter, handful of ice]

[Sweet and savory oats with cottage cheese, hummus, and blueberry jam]

Mmmm. Yes. It’s definitely all the good food. Remember how off I felt just a little while back? Well, after two weeks of making a conscious effort to eat more, I feel like a completely different person.Β I’ve said it before, but I need to say it again:

Food has a HUGE impact on happiness.

… and that’s perfectly okay. It doesn’t mean that we’re eating emotionally; it means that we’re using food to thriveΒ instead of simply survive. Sure I could get by on a lot less, but… why would I want to?

To smile less? To be tired more?

Uhm… sounds great 😯

Sounds like garbage, actually. And it feelsΒ like garbage, too. Trust me on that one. Been there. Done that. Wasn’t impressed.

What’s the point of dragging your feet through life? Where’s the fun in not having the energy/desire to smile and laugh like a crazy person? Where’s the pleasure in constantly telling yourself that you can’t have the things you want?

Answer: No fun. No pleasure. No point.

So don’t be afraid to eat, so that you have the energy to live your life to the fullest.

And don’t mind it when people give you strange looks when you walk around with a huge smile on your face… they’re just jealous πŸ˜‰

. – . – . – .

Do you find that how much you eat really affects your mood?
Yes! Too little = 😦 Enough or a little bit more = πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€

Do you get all giddy and excited when you come across a new product in the store?
Do I ever! Canada was late in hopping on the Greek yogurt bandwagon, and the first time I saw a tub of it in the store, I squeaked out loud. No lies. I got some strange looks.

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  1. July 21, 2011 5:29 pm

    Those nail polish colors are so pretty! They have Essie in Shopper’s Drugmarts in Toronto! I have a bright pink, but I want to get a more subtle one like your, that’s awesome that you found them cause I love the brand!

    I definitely more myself when I eat enough, and well I’m happy so when I eat enough I am more happy πŸ™‚

  2. July 21, 2011 5:34 pm

    You should have more photos of yourself! Own it, girl πŸ™‚ Chic!

  3. July 21, 2011 5:35 pm

    I loveee Essie nail polish!

  4. Rosalie permalink
    July 21, 2011 5:37 pm

    What, or rather, how much, I eat deffffinitely affects how I feel. When I’m consistently eating enough, I’m an all around pleasant person to be with haha. The odd thing I find, though, is that if I do restrict for a few days, I’m generally an equally if not more outgoing person during those days, but end up with an emotional whiplash as soon as I start eating more (I’ve not been tempted yet to see how long the euphoria will last without intervention D: )

    And I get SO excited by new things in grocery stores! When Liberte started stocking Greek yogurt, and then President’s Choice came out with theirs, I was a happy camper (then I checked the price tag, ouch. The other day I just dumped a container of plain yogurt in a paper towel lined strainer and let the whey drain out–I felt rather proud for saving 1.50$ πŸ˜€ ) The natural foods store down the street started stocking Kombucha–I can’t decide if that’s a good or bad thing since they have them priced at 4$ a pop, on sale. I’ve yet to try it, just in case I love it haha. Oh, AND, the Farmers’ Market! Golden beets, candy-striped beets, tiny purple carrots, pinky-sized zucchini, fresh berries, organic sprouts, organic kale and mesclun greens… Saturdays are good days.

  5. July 21, 2011 5:38 pm

    Oh man, I’m definitely much happier when I’m eating the amount I should be! If I don’t eat enough I get too consumed with obsessions over food…it’s like my mind is telling me to eat.. duh Lindsay. I do get very excited when I find a new product in a store- especially if it’s something I’ve been trying to find!

  6. July 21, 2011 5:49 pm

    Eating good food puts me in a good mood! I just devoured a plate of spaghetti lobster followed by Lindt 70% and I’m one happy camper! You phrased it perfectly: “eat to thrive, not just survive”

  7. July 21, 2011 5:52 pm

    I’m a vitamuffin fiend!!! I love love them πŸ™‚

  8. July 21, 2011 5:53 pm

    Food affects my mood 100%! I am one cranky biatchhh when I’m hungry- but if I’m getting in some awesome noshes and a bit of dessert, all is good in the hood (I find nutella banana crepes tend to make me in an EXTRA terrific mood…something with the potassium/chocolate combo methinks)

  9. July 21, 2011 5:54 pm

    So glad you came across some good finds with the nail polish! Thanks for waving hello!! You do look happy!

  10. ittybitsofbalance permalink
    July 21, 2011 6:00 pm

    You have the cutest toesies! (I mean that in the most un-creepiest way/shape/form)

    How much I eat definitely effects my mood– If i eat too much I feel bloated and like I need to get some activity in. If I eat too little I usually get pretty irritable haha 😦
    My boyfriend Will says that food controls my mindset, but hey– who can blame me!?

  11. sarah permalink
    July 21, 2011 6:00 pm

    Purdy girl in the pics!
    I’m wishing you luck with the apartment hunting- I find it(and moving in general) THE most stressful thing. But when you find the perf place you’ll just know it and it will be sooo worth it.
    Yes yes yes to new grocery finds<3 I just got chia seeds( nooo idea what I should do with them really?), and steel cut oats. I cooked the steelies eggily & topped them with pudding , jam & nut butter( of course), they were delicious, loved the texture(chewy/chunky). Thanks for the inspiration!
    Xxx

    • July 21, 2011 9:02 pm

      The crunchiness of steelies is what I love most about them, and I’m glad you liked them πŸ˜€ I wish I could help you with the chias, but I’m still trying to find a way to use my stash up πŸ˜† I like them, but not how they get stuck in my teeth. They’re good when you add them to yogurt and let them sit for a while, though.

  12. July 21, 2011 6:03 pm

    Girl, I get so excited to find new products! Especially when companies come out with new flavors of something…or a new cereal! I remember searching grocery stores for the new Larabar flavors, back when they came out with the peanut butter and jelly flavor. I was so stoked to finally find it. Haha!

    I’m dying to try your sweet and savory oats. I’ve never paired hummus with jam before. Can you believe I still haven’t tried your eggy oats? Or is it eggified? Whatever you call them, those must come first. They’ve gotten a lot of praise around here!

    By the way, you’re a super fast reader. Another by the way, we have tons of Essie nail polish here in LA, and if you ever want to do a blogger swap with me, I will totally buy you a bottle and make it part of the package! πŸ™‚

    • July 21, 2011 9:09 pm

      I think that you’ll love eggified oats πŸ˜€ I know I can’t go back to cooking them the regular way. And that’s so sweet of you to offer! I definitely might have to take you up on that πŸ™‚

  13. July 21, 2011 6:07 pm

    Yes I agree — too little food leads to cranky, unhappy Holly. When food intake and exercise is in balance, then I feel good and I feel happy!

    A friend game me The Alchemist before I went off for college (over 6 years ago) and I haven’t even started it yet. Thank you for the review because it makes me want to finally pick it up!

  14. July 21, 2011 6:12 pm

    Yeah! I’m SO glad you found the Essie nail polish – although I was excited to send you a little care package – I won’t lie πŸ™‚ xo

  15. July 21, 2011 6:16 pm

    Yes! for Essie nail polish! it has yet to come to my city…..haha I get really excited when my city finally gets new stuff πŸ™‚ I squeek all the time with excitment over new foods or products πŸ™‚

  16. July 21, 2011 6:17 pm

    Gorgeous! πŸ˜€

  17. July 21, 2011 6:19 pm

    Love essie nailpolish!!
    Yes food does effect how happy I am.. When I eat more I’ve been feeling so much happier and like you said peppier! I have so much more energy during the day and I’m smiling, less irritable, and just enjoying life.
    And I LOVE finding new products on the shelf.. especially cereals and yogurts πŸ™‚

  18. July 21, 2011 6:21 pm

    it’s so great when I find new products (especially at whole foods and trader joe’s) and that ice cream looks amazing!

  19. July 21, 2011 6:25 pm

    FOOD = MOOD.

    PS- Ypu’ll find the perfect place. If you are not in a rush…wait it out.
    SUNLIGHT girl. I made the mistake of not seeing my current apartment during the day and it is dark.
    Missy no like.

  20. July 21, 2011 6:33 pm

    I love Essie polish, a LOVE those colors!! Food definitely directly affects my mood. I immediately know if I snap, am crabby or feel low on energy then I’m not eating enough. I find it a blessing to be able to recognize when my body is (and isn’t) getting the proper fuel.

  21. Shobha permalink
    July 21, 2011 6:34 pm

    After reading your blog post, I realized that my fowl moodwasactually hunger. thank you. I am trrying to eat more and it ‘s really helping.

    What store did you get then nail polish ? I am an Alberta girl and have never known about it.

  22. July 21, 2011 6:38 pm

    Hi love!

    I love the colors you picked! I have sugar daddy! Love it! Yay for Essie! Things like Essie make me happy! Its the little things!

    Mike and I went to Target tonight and you KNOW I left with a new Essie, Strawberry Shortcake! Its divine! I will share it on the blog tomorrow, actually going to paint my nails right tonight with it ; )

    Seriously, if there is anything you ever really want to try, I would love to send you a package of goodies! Blog world is nice for that, my friend Sara sends me these soy crisp things I cant get here, and I am always so happy! lol

    Let me know! I love to shop for stuff, and if there are any luna bars, any bars, etc… let me know! You are a kick-ass blog friend, sorry to swear , but you are, typing kick butt just wouldn’t prove my point ; )

    have a great night girl! xoxo ❀

  23. July 21, 2011 6:43 pm

    Oh my, whenever I see a new product in a store that is healthy and worth trying I practically jump up and down, then again I look forward to grocery shopping. I agree food does mess with your mood, as my fiance how I am when I have not eaten in 3 hours and he will let you know!

  24. July 21, 2011 6:43 pm

    Gosh, you’re just unbelievably gorgeous!

    I agree wholeheartedly. I think my problems with dairy and stomach aches were causing me to eat less than I realized. I felt like I was frustrated so much more than usual and I would snap at people for no reason. Since I’ve been eating more (I’ve been hungrier MUCH more since stopping dairy for a few days) I’ve felt so much better. No more long naps, no more feeling lazy and sluggish. All I want to do is get up and move around, do chores, help around the house. My parents are loving it πŸ˜‰

    It doesn’t always have to be “healthy” food, either. It’s okay to have a slice of cake or a scoop of ice cream. Those few minutes of enjoying a treat make all the difference!

    I love love love finding new products! Although here in the US we seem to have things quickly- it’s just me who hadn’t discovered them yet. Eeeep!

    I have some vitamuffins in my fridge that I haven’t eaten since I quit Greek yogurt. I need to get on that… I’d love to make my own chocolate muffins, but they never seem… chocolatey enough. HAHA!

  25. Stephanie permalink
    July 21, 2011 6:43 pm

    pretty girl! πŸ˜€ my friend also recommended the Alchemist! I’m so gld I found it at the local library πŸ™‚ and yes food definitely affects my mood (i need my dose of chocolate and carbs everyday or no one can stand my xtreme irritability)

  26. Stephanie permalink
    July 21, 2011 6:43 pm

    pretty girl! πŸ˜€ my friend also recommended the Alchemist! I’m so glad I found it at the local library πŸ™‚ and yes food definitely affects my mood (i need my dose of chocolate and carbs everyday or no one can stand my xtreme irritability)

  27. July 21, 2011 7:07 pm

    Great Essie nail polish – i have to try that color – its perfect for summertime!
    Can’t wait for you to get your new place and hear all about it! You’re going to love decorating it!
    I loved this post – it out a huge smile on my face – i coildn’t agree with you more – good food definately pits me in a good mood!
    Keep smiling!

  28. July 21, 2011 7:07 pm

    I love trying new products, too! It’s one of the reasons I got into doing product reviews last year. It’s always fun to get packages, but it’s even more fun to eat and experiment with new food finds.

    I definitely get affected by food, but I think often more physically than mentally, but it all depends on timing. Sometimes certain foods [like certain dairy products] really make my stomach feel off, and other times I’m fine. It’s all unpredictable, I suppose.

    Love those pretty pics! πŸ™‚

  29. July 21, 2011 7:45 pm

    I’m so glad you showed your beautiful face!! I love seeing pictures of bloggers πŸ™‚ It’s nice to put a face to the lovely blogger we read about everyday!
    I agree that food definitely has a huge impact on happiness. Starving yourself is awful, it makes you feel like crap, it makes you antisocial, it makes you depressed. Eating gives you energy, makes you glow, makes you smile, makes you squeal with delight, and is so fun to enjoy with friends so how could you be antisocial? Your vitamuffin mess would definitely make me happy. Fresh cherries have been making me smile every morning too!

    I go crazy when I see new products. Like.. it’s insane. I jump up and down and smile and laugh.. I actually go to several different super markets because they all carry different things. It’s like an adventure everytime I go!

  30. July 21, 2011 7:59 pm

    Yes!!! When I don’t eat enough, I become the bitchiest bitch in the world.
    For instance, at dinner time, I avoid talking to my mom if I’m making something like Dal, because it would take long time and during the making process = I just say the cruelest things to my mom 😦

    Same here for the Greek Yogurt! I was like “whooooaattt??”
    Also the coconut milk (which I ended up not liking), Bars, and so many things are slowly starting to make their ways up North; which is awesome!

  31. July 21, 2011 8:16 pm

    I have a question for you!!

    I have no problem eating what my body needs (AKA a lot!) when I’m spending the day alone, but when I’m with my family and I realize I’m going to the kitchen 2-3x more often than they are, I start to get really anxious and question how much I’m eating. Do you ever deal with comparing yourself to those around you?? Like, logically I know my body is different and if I’m hungry I need to EAT! But how do you deal with it??

    • July 21, 2011 9:44 pm

      I used to struggle with that a lot, but I would just keep reminding myself how crappy I started feeling when I ate as little as other people did, and then I started to feel kind of sorry for them πŸ˜† I know I can’t get by on less, at least not happily, and remembering the bad times is what keeps me from wanting to go back.

    • July 22, 2011 5:25 am

      Laura, I have the same problem too! I just do it though anyway and realize that we all have different needs. I mean, my parents are way older then me so just naturally their metabolisms are slower. Also, I think it makes my parents HAPPY to see my going into the kitchen a million times a day πŸ˜‰

  32. July 21, 2011 9:05 pm

    AAAAhhh so jealous of your essie find! I love their colors but I can never find it ANYWHERE!!! Glad you liked the book!

  33. Rose permalink
    July 21, 2011 9:46 pm

    You should post more photos of yourself on here πŸ™‚ . By the way does anyone tell you look like Demi Lovato? You look a lot like her to me! It’s weird. πŸ˜›

  34. July 21, 2011 9:49 pm

    Food does make me happier! If I go longer than 2 hours without eating I become such a grouch.. no fun.
    I’m from canada too, and I saw Essie nailpolish at walmart. I was shocked!
    Good luck on the appartment hunt πŸ™‚

  35. July 21, 2011 9:56 pm

    I am a total bitch if I don’t eat enough and I also feel ditzy about everything so that’s when I know I need food pronto. Today, luckily, I got to eat every three hours. I always try to aim for that, but it’s tough with work.

  36. July 21, 2011 9:57 pm

    food makes me happier!! i turn into a super cranky nofuntobearound kinda girl when i have an empty stomach (:

    and i definitely get excited when i see something new in the store. i honestly think i spend more hours in food stores than any other store combined!

  37. July 21, 2011 10:01 pm

    haha, you’re so cute! I actually felt like you were tapping my computer screen πŸ™‚

    Food definitely affects my mood. Good food makes me very happy πŸ˜€

    And, do I get all giddy and excited when I come across a new product in the store? – um, YES x’s a million! haha. Particularly food products πŸ™‚
    I’m glad you were able to find the essie nail polish finally! I love their colors so much! And the pinks you picked out are such pretty shades.

  38. July 21, 2011 10:11 pm

    oh gosh. it’s such a true statement. good food = good lookin’ face (ie) good moooood!! I find that when I eat bland meals, my whole evening is ruined sometimes. I feel like a grump, wanting to re-do dinner. So I just eat a sweet fruit bowl with some oats and my smile returns (as well as tummy endorphins? like exercise? i say yes)

    PS: you’re adorable. let’s be friends.

    happy weeeekend!!!

  39. July 21, 2011 10:26 pm

    Hi sweetheard ❀ Love to see your beautiful face on the blog for once πŸ˜€ Your nail polish is so cute!!
    As always- you are SO right!I cant believe how much food actually plays in on our mood! But it certanly does! When Im not eating enough-which is quite often- I feel crappy and akt like a bitch. Or actually I dont akt like one, but I want to πŸ˜› Food is a mood booster! What I have found over the past days, is that regular eating makes me so much more happy! I still want to eat more, but at least Im on my wat πŸ˜€
    I want those sweet potato fries right now πŸ˜€ But it is 6 am, so I better wait a few hours πŸ˜‰
    Enjoy your day and energy!

  40. Lenna (veganlenna) permalink
    July 21, 2011 10:53 pm

    Amanda, this is soooo amazing to read!! I am happy just when i think about how happy you are πŸ™‚ And I have to say you have some nice nail polish, and a very nice face as well πŸ™‚
    I have to agree with you completely – when I eat not enough, I am all unhappy, energyless, sluggish. When I am properly “fueled” I feel that I can rule the world πŸ™‚

  41. July 22, 2011 12:11 am

    haha you are too cute, and is it weird to say your painted TOES are so cute!? i have really ugly feet… haha

    and food DEFINITELY makes me happy – it’s both an emotional and a very chemical thing as well – food helps to release serotonin in the brain, which has a calming + happy effect on people – that’s why when i’m hungry i get really irritable, haha

  42. July 22, 2011 12:51 am

    Oh my gosh I couldnt agree more!
    When I was under-eating, I was SUCH a grouch!! I was forever fighting with my parents, and I was a major party pooper ALL the time… now I’m usually in a great mood! πŸ˜€
    I get so excited too when I find new things in the store! Love that pink colour πŸ™‚

  43. July 22, 2011 4:01 am

    Well, hellloooooo gorgeous! πŸ™‚
    It is SO lovely to hear how happy you are!! I can 100% relate actually. Despite struggling a little with body image, it doesn’t override my genuine happy feeling inside because I’m actually eating well and it feels amazing doesn’t it?! Back in my ED days I was NOT a pleasant girl to be around. I was always depressed, I lost my sense of humor, I didn’t want to socialise and everything seemed like the end of the world. Now, everyone, especially my parents, that I’ve come back to ‘life’. I’m chatty, happy, funny and want do things, go places and it feels like nothing is stopping me and that is all down to food! I love it! πŸ™‚
    And eee I’m such a sucker for new nail varnish, I literally have every color of the rainbow…I think I get most excited at new foods though πŸ˜›

  44. buttonss - Cherie permalink
    July 22, 2011 4:09 am

    Aw wow! its so lovely to hear how happy you are!

    I have to say, since eating more (and properly) I have felt amazing, people comment on how happy i am and how bright my eyes are. And I feel so much more in tune with how my body feels when its hungry.
    I now hate the feeling of being hungry because that feeling reminds me of when I use to deprive myself from food. When I did this I would be grumpy, light headed, dizzy and just didnt want to talk to anyone.
    So eating effects my mood ALOT. I can absolutely see a difference in myself after eating a meal or even just a snack.

    • buttonss - Cherie permalink
      July 22, 2011 4:10 am

      Also its nice to see your pretty face in this post πŸ™‚

  45. July 22, 2011 4:52 am

    HELLO gorgeous Amanda!! You have a very beautiful face πŸ™‚

    I MISSED YOU and I love all your last posts! Well, I love all your posts so thats not saying much πŸ˜‰

    I LOVE FOOD and eating what I want seriously makes me SO happy!!! Right now you have made me CRAVE sweet tater fries so I’m hoping I have some to make these RIGHT NOW!! Who cares that it’s 10.30 am? πŸ˜›

    LOVE YOU ❀

  46. July 22, 2011 5:10 am

    Ahh yes I went through a phase of feeling “off” and then when I started to eat more I was OFF THE FREAKIN’ WALLS with energy! It’s an amazing feeling!

    Yes, here in NZ we don’t tend to get brands from overseas either! But when I see things and I get (overly) excited, people just don’t understand why. WHY DON’T THEY UNDERSTAND?!?!

    You’re gorgeous πŸ™‚

    xxx

  47. July 22, 2011 5:27 am

    This post is so true for me! When I don’t eat enough, I turn into a sleep-deprived, sluggish piece of angry mess. It’s not pretty, not pretty AT ALL. Food in mah belly = energetic crazy Alexandra, I like her a lot more than no-food Alexandra haha
    And HECK YES! I go crazy for new products in stores, I’ll sit there and gawk for like 10 minutes at the item, look around at others in disbelief, and then promptly chuck it in my cart πŸ˜‰

  48. July 22, 2011 5:45 am

    Haha I was the same way when I first saw Greek yogurt in Canada. Especially when all the flavoured ones came out starting last summer! I also got sooo excited when I visited a grocery store in Toronto that sells Oikos and Chobani. I think I scared a few nearby customers with my excitement. πŸ˜›

    And yes! Eating more definitely = more happiness. Back in the ED days I actually had to go on antidepressants because the lack of fats actually caused chemical imbalances in my brain. I finally got to go off them this summer and it feels awesome!

  49. July 22, 2011 6:59 am

    Huge congrats on finding a condo! Sometimes it takes a while for the realisation to hit and for you to get excited but it will come πŸ™‚ Loving those nail polishes! I completely agree that food affects our mood in a HUGE way. When I was eating far to less and avoiding carbs I was a complete bitch, and even now I know that I need food when I start to feel crabby. I’ve really found that eating healthy food in the right amounts makes me feel awesome πŸ™‚

  50. July 22, 2011 7:21 am

    You. Are. Freaking. Gorgeous.

    Just sayin’ 😯

    moving on…

    How much I eat and what I eat definitely affects my mood. If I eat too little, I think about food constantly and think about my stomach constantly (how it feels, when I’ll be hungry again, if it’s too full, etc.). However, I DO think there is such a thing as negative “emotional eating”. I do agree that many forms of perfectly OK eating can be touted as such, but what I’m talking about is when I am sad, stressed, or anxious (whether food was the cause of it or life), I will consciously and knowingly eat more than is physically comfortable (and I don’t enjoy it either, I just shovel so I can’t think about it). I have notice that, for myself, food has an affect on my mood but what I feed myself in other ways (communication, and outlook for instance) affects my eating. Unfortunately I still have a mood connect with my stomach– when it is too full, empty, hurts (if I eat too much sugar for instance– it messes up my stomach. like. crazy.) I find myself in an anxious flighty mood.

    I guess what I’m trying to say is that they feed into one another– that food and mood both affect one another for me.

  51. July 22, 2011 7:39 am

    Cute pictures! Nice to see you πŸ™‚ .

    If I fall asleep at 9 and get up 10 hours later with a headache and a crappy mood, then something is definitely wrong. Of course, I refuse to admit that it has something to do with food even though at 10 am I am already dreaming of lunch. It is still not food when my headache gets worse and I can’t concentrate on anything. The fact that I am thinking about food all day doesn’t mean I am hungry. Is it even possible to be hungry after eating so much? Well, it turns out to be possible. After I finally got over the crazy estimated calorie count of my daily intake I went to the supermarket and bought the only thing I craved. Needless to say, I don’t have a headache anymore and I don’t feel like crying without any apparent reason. I promised myself to skip breakfast tomorrow to make up for this but I don’t think it is going to happen.

    Living in Japan makes grocery shopping quite an adventure. I am ready to jump to the ceiling every time I see something familiar. “Yay, dal!”, “Yay, REAL rye bread!”, “Yay, chickpeas that I can buy without selling a kidney!”, “Yay, German chocolate!”. Who cares that a plate of sushi is cheaper than a tiny container of cottage cheese? Keep your sushi and give me the cheese! πŸ˜€

  52. July 22, 2011 7:54 am

    Love Essie!

    I have trouble telling when I am hungry so unless I am really depriving myself I don’t feel a difference. Except food does tend to taste better when I haven’t eaten for awhile, and that makes me happy πŸ™‚

  53. July 22, 2011 8:16 am

    Is it weird to say I’m jealous of your toes? Mine look GROSS from all the running. Not kidding at all either, but I’ll leave the details out.

    Eating definitely has a huge impact on our happiness. I get SUPER grumpy when I’m hungry. You know those Snickers commercials where they turn all diva when they’re hungry? That’s totally me.

  54. July 22, 2011 8:26 am

    Ah! I love that nail color! I totally go crazy when I find something that I previously only heard about or couldn’t find…I then proceed to snatch up what I can like it will disappear next time I am there. The Alchemist is such an inspiring story, I am glad you enjoyed it.

  55. July 22, 2011 8:38 am

    Ew, the feeling of having no energy is thee worst. When I get hungry I can feel my energy level seriously drop so I immediately eat something. I can’t imagine feeling that way for longer than even 5 minutes. Love that part about thriving instead of just surviving πŸ™‚ And is it just me or does the name totally make the nail polish. I just got a pedicure and although I really like this one color, “Thrill of Brazil” is just way more fun than “OPI Red.”

  56. July 22, 2011 9:03 am

    I couldn’t agree more. When I under-eat I get so groggy/out of it. Add in some more delicious snacks/bigger meals, and I am a happy camper!

    Great snap shots btw, you should appear more on your blog! πŸ™‚

  57. July 22, 2011 9:18 am

    You know, I used to buy Essie nail polish way back when it first hit shelves here… when I was still in high school. It was a lot cheaper then. πŸ˜‰

    As for new products, I only get excited when it’s something I can actually HAVE. Otherwise, it’s just a tease.

    ❀ ❀

  58. runningonapples permalink
    July 22, 2011 9:21 am

    So true! I get completely crabby when I don’t eat enough- its hard to be around me

  59. July 22, 2011 10:38 am

    Ah you’re so gorgeous! :] Reading how happy you are actually made me happy πŸ˜€ I hadn’t realized how much food affects my mood until very recently. I used to be very moody, sad, and irritable when I wasn’t getting enough. When I started eating more I definitely saw big changes! I think I can still do a little bit better but I cannot imagine ever going back to my old unhappy days. I’m a happy person now and I love it!! I love my food too haha. Oh and I love the nail polish colors! Essie’s the best. I need to pick some of them up.

  60. July 22, 2011 10:44 am

    You’re so cute!!! I love the toenail polish.

    Oh my gosh I’m such a dork when it comes to new products. I Found this new spice thing at trader joes and I was telling the check out guy how excited I was to play with it. Who says that?! He pretended like he didn’t think I was crazy… but I could see it in his eyes πŸ˜‰

  61. July 22, 2011 10:56 am

    it has taken me years to realise how much a lack of food affected me and yes it makes me so miserable. I feel so much more happier and content and able to handle life when I am eating well.

  62. Jinny permalink
    July 22, 2011 11:19 am

    I’m 100% guilty for lurking your blog! Many a times I’ve wanted to comment, but didn’t. Today, I just had to. Maybe it’s because I completely relate to this post (then again, I feel as though I relate to so many of your posts!). But knowing that I’m coming to a place, albeit slowly, where my relationship with food has become a positive one (food fuels me and makes me happy!) and that has enabled me to find happiness in all the other aspects of life that diminished from my disorder, I’m happy. I get happy from the little things in life again. Like pretty nail polish πŸ™‚ I totally get that one. I also just found a new apartment for me and the bf, who is finally coming home from a year long deployment next month.

    “So don’t be afraid to eat, so that you have the energy to live your life to the fullest.”

    I couldn’t agree more.

    Would it be totally creepy to say I have a gargantuan blog crush on you? πŸ˜›
    Just really wanted to say thanks for being a great inspiration.

    • July 22, 2011 4:27 pm

      Thank you so much for your comment, Jinny! I really appreciate you taking the time to write such kind words. And it’s great to hear that you’re experiencing the same happy, food-induced effects πŸ˜€

  63. July 22, 2011 1:36 pm

    Awwww I missed your unbelievably gorgeous face πŸ™‚
    You know when I was starving myself back in the day I was miserable. Not just because I hated myself and was hungry, but because I seriously missed the taste of food. And now? Things like peanut butter, chocolate, and cheesecake can make anyday better, and I’m no longer missing the taste of them, because I can have them whenever I want πŸ™‚

  64. July 22, 2011 2:49 pm

    Allrighty you gorgeous woman : I LOVE YOU. Every lil’ piece of that beautiful and wise and stubborn soul of yours.

    This post has so much greatness to it and it expresses a mind who has finally realized the truth : food is not only our key to survival, it is also important for our mood. A strong body and a strong mind needs proper nourishment, it is fundamental for being in this world as the person we want to be. Not the sleepy, cranky one, who feels tired of life, but the passionate, determined one full of dreams and lust for life.
    Since starting to eat more my mood has done a 360 and it lights up my heart when people
    tell me they feel I’m coming back to my true self.

    I am a bit lost for words today, after all that has happened in Norway – but I want you to know that I’m incredibly proud of you ❀

  65. July 22, 2011 2:59 pm

    I think food can definitely effect your mood. if I’m really hungry, I may get cranky. Or if I eat too much or overeat, I may feel gross. Like with anything you need balance πŸ™‚

  66. July 22, 2011 3:52 pm

    sometimes i like to heat up my “almond butter frosting” and eat it with superrrr cold fruit.. why does it taste so much better when one thing is really hot and the other is really cold? i’m weird.

  67. July 22, 2011 4:30 pm

    Eating makes me happy πŸ™‚

  68. July 23, 2011 5:59 am

    Hiii, pretty girl! I love seeing pictures of your pretty food, but I also love when you show pictures of yourself! Um and yes. Food absolutely impacts my happiness! πŸ˜€

  69. July 23, 2011 6:47 am

    Food definitely impacts my happiness! I live to eat rather than eat to live πŸ™‚

  70. seegirlsmile permalink
    July 23, 2011 9:18 am

    Hi Amanda,

    This is out of the blue, and might sound foolish. But I’m completely overwhelmed by a 100 things right now and wonder if you’d mind if I emailed you sometime just to unload (I know thats not fair to you), u can email me to let me know if that’s ok, but just wondering…I don’t know why I ask/write this……weak moment I guess.

  71. July 23, 2011 11:44 am

    you are so right!!! More food makes us SO much happier than being undernourished πŸ™‚ I think there is a huge benefit to it in recovery as well, mentally.

    Hope today is an amazing day for you!

    Scott

  72. Hilary permalink
    July 25, 2011 11:32 am

    Hi Amanda, I love your blog so much, so thoughtful and beautiful food to look at. Right now I am really struggling with eating enough (I am eating enough to get by, but not enough to thrive). I know you have posted about how things got a lot better for you as you ate more, but I really am scared to eat more because I am scared my metabolism is super messed up. I can also really never tell when I am hungry (no matter how long I go without eating I never really feel hungry). Anyway, I was wondering if you could point me to any of your posts about how you started to eat more or what steps you took to get your metabolism working again. Thanks so much!

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