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July 8, 2011

Hi friends! Happy Thur Friday! 😀

Miss one day of posting and my whole concept of time is thrown way off. Eesh. But I was just in no state to post yesterday… Any time I’d sit down at the computer and try to write, I’d only end up frustrated because no words would come. None. My thoughts were muddled. I was tired. I was cranky. It was just a bad day overall, and I think I know why…

… I was out of cantaloupe

… which would explain why today has been so much better…

I restocked 😀

In all seriousness, though, I’m pretty sure I know why I had such a bad day yesterday; and although it had nothing to do with cantaloupe, it did have something to do with food… or rather, the lack of it…

My guess is that I was simply hungry…

And I say “guess” because I didn’t exactly feel overtly hungry – there was no rumbling stomach or hunger pangs… not even feelings of weakness or fatigue. I mean, I wasn’t exactly bouncing off the walls, but I wasn’t ready to pass out from exhaustion either.

Rather, what I was experiencing was a general feeling of “off-ness”. Irritability. Slight hyperactivity. An inability to concentrate. Minor stomach complaints… Nothing good…

… this, on the other hand, was very good… Baked Apple Pie Oatmeal. It was a stormy night and a dreary day, so it felt comforting to fire up the oven and cozy up in a warm kitchen.

Hunger is a funny thing that shows itself in a variety of ways… one time my stomach will be growling, and the next time I’ll be growling at everyone I see. So, although I always do my best to honor my hunger, the problem is that I don’t always recognize it for what it is; and I think part of that has to do with the fact that it’s hard for me to believe that I might actually need to eat more than I already do…

 

 

See, I eat a lot, which is fine – I’ve reconciled myself with the fact that I eat like a horse… But the idea that it might not be enough is extremely difficult to grasp, especially because I’m not exactly running marathons or training for hours a day, so how could I possibly need even more?

And here’s where the back-and-forth begins…

Maybe I don’t. Maybe I nibble from boredom. Maybe my symptoms aren’t those of hunger – maybe it’s something else… But then why do I always seem to feel better after a meal or a snack? Why do my symptoms temporarily clear up? If it’s not hunger, then why am I only able to focus on things other than food after I feel satisfied with what I ate?

Actually, that’s one of the more reliable symptoms of my hunger. When I’m hungry, I can’t think about anything other than food, and I’m not really interested in doing anything other than eating…

Parfait made with blueberries, chia goo, and maple sweetened Greek yogurt.

A few of the other, more come-and-go, signs that I’ve noticed are:

  • Increased irritability and moodiness
  • Inability to concentrate or focus
  • Increased anxiety and hyperactivity
  • Inability to relax or sleep
  • Feeling heavy and fatigued
  • Headaches and vertigo
  • Digestive complaints

… and experiencing any of those makes me think that I should grab something extra to eat; but at the same time, it’s hard for me to believe that I actually need it, especially when I start thinking about food a mere hour after I finished a big meal… it’s like “how can I already be hungry again?

Pumpkin Hummus Tortilla Pizza

Gah! So frustrating. But I’m still learning, and trying to let it sink in.

What I do know is that I hate feeling that way, and that I’d do anything to fix/prevent it. But what I don’t know is if more food is the right answer. I guess the only way to find out is to eat more and see if it helps; and I already know that it will… I’m just still having a hard time believing it.

. – . – . – .

Can anyone relate? Some advice? Please tell me I’m not some sort of freak of nature 😆

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  1. July 8, 2011 4:23 pm

    Definitely relate- I’m still struggling to come to terms that hunger/food needs are NOT always logical/uniform and that some days I’ll simply be hungry and need more food than others due to hormonal fluctuations or whatever it else is that my body is trying to tell me. Sometimes if I feel like I’m still hungry not long after finishing a meal, I drink a glass of water and wait half an hour- if I’m still hungry by then, I’ll eat something.

  2. July 8, 2011 4:26 pm

    I can totally relate. There are many days when I’m physically full but my mind is telling me I’m hungry. When this happens I experience all the same symptoms as you. I find myself so inpatient with absolutely everything. Take for example yesterday I got home from a long day of work to cook dinner just to find that my brother finished the plain greek yogurt I was sooo looking forward too to dipping my veggies in and having as dessert. I honestly started crying, that’s when I know I am SUPER hungry without any physical hunger. So strange, so annoying and so hard to listen too!

    I’m glad to know I’m not the only one this happens too, I’m sure we will figure out the right balance soon enough! 🙂

  3. July 8, 2011 4:27 pm

    I think maybe since at one point you were trying to gain weight, your metabolism just sped up like crazy? And now, with weight training, that can’t exactly be helping the sitch, if you know what I mean. You definitely need to eat more! Otherwise your body won’t be able to keep up with your metabolism and you’ll start dropping weight.

  4. Joanna permalink
    July 8, 2011 4:28 pm

    I completely related to everything you wrote in this post. In fact, I could have written the exact same words with the way I’ve been feeling lately, today especially. And I’m having the same problem/confusion you are as to whether or not it is truly hunger. So even though I don’t have a solution, I must admit, it made me feel a lot better to know that I’m not going crazy and the only one having an issue with this weird feeling. Definitely keep me updated if you figure it out! :o)

  5. July 8, 2011 4:29 pm

    Gah this is something that I struggle with, some days my stomach will just not stop growling even though I keep feeding it and then other days I don’t get that and I feel like I’m eating for the sake of eating. And some days, because I tend to snack at the same sort of times everyday, even when I’m not feeling hungry, I’ll still and go get something out of habit. And what confuses me most, is that my stomach will growl sometimes when I’m working out and it will only be 15 minutes maximum until I can give it some food. But when that time comes, I don’t feel hungry at all. Why are bodies so weird?! If you ever find the answer, please tell me 🙂

  6. July 8, 2011 4:29 pm

    I totally understand what you’re going through. I’m not sure what’s been up with me lately- I feel like I need more food than ever but I haven’t really increased my activity level. Sometimes I finish a meal and I’m hungry again within two hours or so when I never used to need food again so quickly. Either that or I find myself napping more or feeling generally “under the weather”.

    Have you been drinking enough water? I know thats a problem I sometimes have. I just… forget to! It sounds silly, I know. It seems like the hotter the weather becomes the more food I feel like I need. I’m thinking it might be that I’m mistaking dehydration for hunger-ish things. No pangs like you said, but a sort of muffled grumble-type-feeling here and there.

    I’m going to try starting my day with a big glass of water along with my oats methinks and see if that helps. Perhaps the combination of more coffee than I’ve had in a while and the hot weather has made me lack much needed fluid! Eeeep!

    I’ll cross my fingers that we can both get back to a better state! ❤

    • July 8, 2011 6:27 pm

      I was thinking that it might be a dehydration thing, but I already drink a tonne of water as it is, and feel like I’d make myself sick if I tried to force in more. Maybe it honestly is just hunger 😆

      • July 9, 2011 4:00 pm

        Haha, I know right? I keep forgetting to drink throughout the day so I chug a big glass until I feel like I’m going to explode. EEEP!

  7. July 8, 2011 4:33 pm

    Yup, definitely know what you mean!! I definitely get cranky and lethargic when I need food! I also think it’s a lifting thing!! When I first started strength training with BodyPump a few months back, I saw my NEED for food increase a lot, and now even more so with NROLFW! Sometimes, I don’t actually have hunger pangs, but I get the feeling that I NEED more food, if that makes any sense? Haha don’t worry in recent months I’ve been eating like an ELEPHANT and the changes have only been GOOD, like more muscle! LOVE it, and so lets just eat as much as our body asks for and look like the woman on the cover of NROLFW! 😀

  8. July 8, 2011 4:36 pm

    I can relate SO MUCH. I think it’s a combination of a few things that makes us so “scared” of our hunger…1) always comparing yourself to other people or what you use to eat or what you ‘should’ eat. There all these “general” guidelines that try to “GUIDE” people into eating and our bodies are just so different I dont understand how they could do that. I met someone in recovery who was maintained on like 3500 calories a day. Actually, I can think of another women I know who does that as well. We ALL have different metabolism. There is no “magic number”. It’s just what your body NEEDS and what your body wants. Easier said then done. I have a fear of over eating or eating because im bored. BUT do I have a history of over eating and emotional eating? NO. So why do I fear it so much? haha because im nuts obviously! Plus, the media makes it out to be the end of the world if we “enjoy food” or have a little bit to much one day. I mean, so what if we sat around one day and ate out of boredum? GASPPPP… Not like the world would end, nor would we die of a heart attack. I think we all tend to get to rapped up in eating the “perfect” way. like the other commenters said, i think you if your having those symptoms you DO NEED to eat more. All the advice I can offer is just remember that we are all unique and your just honoring your body. You cant “mess up” so just dont over think it. Also, I find it helpful to concentrate on the perks of honoring your body, like you dont have to think about food all day if your eating well! LOL

    Dana xo

  9. July 8, 2011 4:41 pm

    I think what might be the problem here is that even though you eat a lot, you eat a lot of fruit and veggies which may indeed be filling, but they aren’t all that high in calories. On blogs I see of people lifting heavy weights, they decrease their veggie intake because they make them feel falsely full and are unable to get the calories (I should really say “energy”) into their body that their muscles need in order to grow. I think that’s one thing to accept when you start lifting heavy weights – you are going to need to eat a lot to maintain energy levels.

    It’s just one suggestion but it’s a suggestion from experience. You see, while I was gaining weight, I would fill up on fruit and vegetables and think, “Oh my, I am full so I mustn’t need anymore fuel.” Trouble was, I would get cranky and I’d be so low in energy except I couldn’t fit anymore food in because I had filled up so much on fibrous and filling vegetables. It wasn’t until I cut back on my veggies and fruit that I actually began to feel *real* hunger and I noticed a HUGE difference in my moods and energy levels. I still eat plenty of veg and fruit, but I don’t go crazy with it.

    I missed you yesterday ❤
    xxx

    • July 8, 2011 6:41 pm

      Hrm. Good point about the fruits/veggies… I’ve already decreased the amount of veggies I eat, especially the really fibrous ones, but it’s hard to say no to the fruit! Especially now that it’s summer. I might give it a shot, though, and see if it helps.

  10. July 8, 2011 4:45 pm

    I always feel hungry, so I know that what I’m experiencing is due to hunger. Sometimes, I get those signs when I’ve gone way past hungry. I think that being hungry and hour after you eat a large meal is normal- I am the exact same way. Especially since we lift weights, I think hunger occurs more often than if we were just cardio junkies. Our bodies are constantly burning…oh the ups and downs of eating food and trying to figure out the best and healthiest ways to do it

  11. July 8, 2011 4:47 pm

    Oh gees girl, I don’t know how you do it – I would try and try to explain that I was feeling this way but I would never be able to put in words like you do. Glad to see others relating to me!
    I mean, I run a fair amount I guess. About 3-6 miles 5 days a week, But I don’t think it means I should have this hunger that can never be shut up.
    Don’t get me wrong, I love food, I love to eat. But I hate having to worry about it every where I go.. If I don’t eat every 2 hours on the dot, my stomach will grumble, I’m cranky, mean. But sometimes I can’t tell if I’m hungry, I’m just cranky and food just seems to make the crankiness go away?
    Who knows, I’m hoping someday this will eventually balance itself out.

    • July 8, 2011 6:01 pm

      I have the same running habits and I also have unquenchable hunger! I hate the worrying about eating every couple hours… sometimes I feel like I need to overload so I will be able to last more than a couple hours.

      • July 8, 2011 6:43 pm

        I very much second this… If I have to do something for more than a few hours, I start to get a little panicky if I know I won’t be able to eat…

  12. July 8, 2011 4:55 pm

    You know what’s freaky? Every single one of those “symptoms” you listed apply to me — pretty much ALL the time!! That either means that I’m not eating enough (possible since I have no idea what hunger even is these days), or that I’m just a cranky irritable person by nature (which is also extremely likely). Hmm.

    In any case, I think it’s pretty safe to say that this doesn’t make you a freak of nature!!

    ❤ ❤

  13. July 8, 2011 5:11 pm

    Sorry you had an off day yesterday – it could be hunger, but it could also be something else. I say if you keep feeling that way to go get some bloodwork done. You never know!

    • July 10, 2011 8:48 am

      I totalllllly second this! I used to have all these symptoms (aka “bottomless hunger, anxiety, mood swings, horrible difficulty sleeping/staying asleep, extreme cold intolerance, amenorehea) when I was “overexercising”/underfueling (which I learned for my body was actually not that much compared to many people in the blogging world).The blogging world is definitely way more active than the “real” world. Bottom line: exercise really affects adrenal/thryroid/metabolic functions and a blood test showed that my T3 levels were low (hypothyroidism aka slow metabolism – despite being constantly hungry and exercising daily). Basically, that whole if you eat too little and exercise too much your body and goes into “survival” mode thing is actually REAL.

      It really becomes a vicious cycle too. When your appetite feels completely bottomless, you feel like you are literally eating for 2 or 3 people, and its extremely difficult not to feel anxiety over not only how much you are eating but also WHAT you eat (*this cereal I am craving for breakfast will never fill me up/or keep me full*). As a result, you casually sneak in some extra exercise at the end of the day or an extra mile on the treadmill in the morning to hopefully help cancel some of the extra calories you ate. In the end, your hunger/satiety cues become totally out of whack. Because of my slow metabolism, I actually ended up gaining about 5 lbs in a few months despite working out for 2+ hours some days.

      For me the proof is in the pudding. I’ve been tapering my exercise to extremely light activity (think walking and golfing) and have actually lost about 3 lbs in a few weeks. The first week was superrrrr scary (I literally thought I was getting fatter everyday I didn’t do “real exercise” and I was super anxious all the time). I was actually too afraid to weigh myself at first because I felt “too fat” but gave in and found that I had actually lost a pound. I simply focused on eating when I was hungry, what sounded appetizing, and stopping when my body/tummy felt good/satisfied and decided that finding my natural weight through hunger/satiety cues rather than a caloric standard was going to be more stable in the long run considering my hormonal imbalances. I definitely eat smaller portions than I used to although calorically I’m not sure I actually eat less. Either way, most of my symptoms have really cleared up (especially the anxiety and bottomless hunger).

      Sorry for being sooo long winded! As a reader, I know that you are very good about honoring your cravings/appetite and don’t work out like a maniac, so I guess I would just suggest going to doctor to get some blood work done just to make sure everything is normal, possibly eating more calorically dense foods so that eating more does feel so overwhelming, and just don’t be afraid to experiment to see what works best for you!

  14. July 8, 2011 5:12 pm

    It’s exactly what I’ve been feeling recently too – I have difficulty recognizing true hunger.
    Sometimes I eat, and then I get hungrier. This confuses me a lot, since in the start of the meal/snack, I wasn’t ‘that’ ravenous As a result, I end up putting spoonfuls of nut butters in my mouth at like 11:30pm, literally. Not only it confuses me, but it also scares me gravely because I would feel so out of control.
    Anyways, thanks for the “symptoms” you listed. It seems my symptoms are similar. Perhaps it’s like this: my body gives me those “iffy” signs throughout the day (fatigue, etc) and then gives me the real signals (like growling) late at night. I’m still working on my intuitive eating; as a person who just finished whatever I had on my plate, it just seems hard, but I’m proud to say that I’ve learned by myself that I need so much more than what the “calculator” tells me. lol.

  15. July 8, 2011 5:16 pm

    many times i am hungrier after a meal than when i first started eating. most of the time i am hungry 2 hours after eating… and its not uncommon to have days where i have to have another meal 1 hour after- its the nature of the beast…the internal hunger beast that is 🙂

    xoxo

  16. July 8, 2011 5:33 pm

    I rarely have an appetite 😦

  17. July 8, 2011 5:40 pm

    I can relate to that 100%. Some days I am in awe at the amount of food that I consume, while other days I am perfectly satisfied with small snacks. Strange.

    All of those symptoms are friends of mine, and no one likes to be around me when they come out to play. It’s crazy how our moods change when the hunger monster strikes.

    I began adding more grains to my diet which helps keep me full longer. I find that even though I stuff a huge salad down my throat with some tuna, it doesnt hold me over for long. If I add a slice of bread or some brown rice however, I seem to stay full longer. Veggies make you full for moment, but wait 1/2 hour and you’ll be hungry again. Also, the more muscle you have, the faster your metabolism is, resulting in major calorie burn even when you’re not exercising. bonus!

    I have also realized that sometimes I am actually thristy, so I will chug a glass of water/crystal light/vitmamin water, or a simple cup of tea and see if my hunger subsides. If it doesnt, I know that I am truly hungry and will eat a snack. If the water seems to help, then I’m good to go!
    Dont get frustrated, it’s hard to get a grasp on hunger cues. I think the main reason is that you began lifting weights and now your body needs more calories that it did before.

    • July 8, 2011 6:54 pm

      Truth. The lifting really threw a wrench into any success I had with intuitive eating 😆 I’m hoping to get things figured out soon so that I don’t end up going crazy.

  18. July 8, 2011 5:43 pm

    My appetite and I have serious wars some days. Sometimes I literally have to force myself to eat because I’m just not hungry and others I am scarfing down everything in sight. But your body KNOWS. Don’t let your BRAIN mess with you. Just listen to what your body is telling you and don’t THINK about it!! You are doing great girl, and you have such solid eats. I know you’ll figure it all out!! 🙂

  19. July 8, 2011 5:50 pm

    I can definitely relate and I wish I could offer some advice, but the truth is: I don’t have any! It’s a struggle and a process for me as well. I think simply being mindful and asking yourself if it’s really hunger you’re feeling or if it’s something else is the first step. It seems like that’s what you’re already doing, so at least you’re on the right track. I think everyone is a never ending work in progress, constantly unfolding. And it’s our job to explore the many facets of our being. So, all I can say is keep on doing what you’re doing and you’ll figure it all out!
    P.S. I missed you! I have been camping and away from a computer so I have not been able to read any blogs! It’s good to be back 🙂 Sending you love ❤

  20. Alexa permalink
    July 8, 2011 5:51 pm

    Hi Amanda, I’ve been reading for a while and this post has made me really want to say something that I’ve worried about in the past with your blog. It’s great that you don’t feel the need to know your weight, but you REALLY REALLY should be seeing a doctor who knows about eating disorders can keep tabs on your weight and, perhaps even more importantly, vital signs. Listening to your body is wonderful, but it’s not perfect, and when you’ve suffered from an eating disorder (1) your nutritional needs may not fall within the scope of “normal” and (2) there are many physical and psychological obstacles to knowing what your body needs. Especially considering the tendency of recovered anorexics to develop hypermetabolism, it’s possible that you still aren’t getting enough. Some people actually do have to eat far past their “comfortable fullness” level to really recover, or to then stay healthy.

    Anyway, whatever you decide to do about doctors, at LEAST you should make sure you eat more since it does seem like you are getting quite hungry. There is really not a single reason in the universe why you wouldn’t – you have no tendency towards being overweight and overeating is simply not a health problem for you. Why not try to add something to your diet that you are sure to eat every day, at least for a week or two to try it, like a substantial appetizer/salad/soup course before dinner?

    One last thing – you shouldn’t feel ashamed of what you eat! It’s not scant, but it doesn’t strike me as being excessive at all.

    • July 8, 2011 7:03 pm

      Thank you for the sound advice, Alexa 🙂 I’ve been picking at things a lot more throughout the day, but you’re probably right that I just need to add another substantial snack to see if it helps.

  21. sarah permalink
    July 8, 2011 5:57 pm

    I relate to a lotta what you have said.
    I love your blog and I hope this doesn’t come across as critical or mean in ANY way. Iv known quite a few people who have/had ED’s and its very common for them to actually overestimate what their intake is & just think they are eating a lot. I can understand how you think you eat like horse if you compare what you eat to some bloggers, but I don’t think the blog world is a realistic representation what a normal intake is for the general population.
    BUT I obviously don’t know everything you eat because you don’t post it , which is totally cool.
    Also I know you don’t weigh yourself. But if you are underweight it could be the reason you feel hungry a lot- specialists have told me that an underweight body is always in starvation.
    I’m just like you with feeling like I could knaw my arm off within an hour of a large meal- but we’re young so I just try to embrace a raging metabolism while it lasts!
    P.s I bought dark chocolate, vanilla & caramel soya puddings today- wonder who could have inspired such a purchase?
    Xxx

  22. Teniesha @ Vegan on the Go-Go permalink
    July 8, 2011 5:58 pm

    I struggle with the same problem a lot–it’s very frustrating, but I’ve found over and over that denying my hunger is pointless and actually elevates my desire to eat even more, especially if I’m craving a certain food. I often assume that my hunger should be pretty much the same day after day. I also sometimes wonder if I just have “appetite” or if I really need to eat as much as I do. Listening to one’s body isn’t always easy, but I’m learning. 🙂

  23. July 8, 2011 6:04 pm

    I’ve been having crazy constant hunger as well. I feel tired, and I tell myself it is from a lack of caffeine. I really think that I’m loading up on too many veggies that I get really hungry about a half hour after my meals… then I just go eat chips or ice cream or something fast and satisfying. I’m going to try incorporating more beans and nuts into my meals– I just bought more hummus and a big bag of lentils!

    I hope you feel better!

  24. July 8, 2011 6:09 pm

    Man oh man I can relate! Sometimes literally an hour after I have a meal I’ll already be ravenous, especially on my leg workout days. I mostly try to combat the hunger with nut butters since they tend to fill me up, but it can get overwhelming having to cram in more food. I’m actually really amazed at how much I’ll eat–my mom jokes I’m her teenage son going through puberty and eating a fridge worth of food a day haha 😉
    “one time my stomach will be growling, and the next time I’ll be growling at everyone I see” <–AMEN! I turn into the ultimate diva when I'm hungry, people gotta watch out!
    I have no doubt you'll figure this out, you're a strong gal with a great head on her shoulders 🙂

  25. July 8, 2011 6:10 pm

    Oh yeah, I relate BIG TIME.
    I hate being hungry without feeling hungry. Total mind screw for me. And it didn’t even pay for my dinner or text me afterward saying it had a good time.

    I also hate being full and still hungry. That happens when I eat too many filling veggies for too many days. My body is like “can we get some more protein and carbs up in this joint?”

  26. July 8, 2011 6:13 pm

    I can’t believe how many people experience the same thing. I’m like that almost all the time and I thought I was going crazy. There are days when all I can think about is food even though the food I eat seems more than enough and definitely more than the amounts everybody around me considers enough. I am afraid that I’m eating so much not because I need the energy but because my brain sends me the wrong signals like “I’m lonely -> I eat”, “I’m sad -> I eat”, etc. I wish I could be completely sure that the weight I am gaining is muscle from the cycling and I will stop gaining at some point but I am not sure and it is freaking me out. I am glad that I am not the only one who has to fight with the same feelings and almost everybody mentions training as a possible cause of the never-ending hunger. Let’s just eat when we feel like eating despite the dieting world around us that hates fruit, milk, nuts and all the real food in general, shall we? 🙂

  27. michele permalink
    July 8, 2011 6:17 pm

    I so recognize this! I used to eat very little to the point that my mother started to worry. I couldn’t finish my meals and rarely had an appetite. Now it’s just the opposite! I started eating more healthily, and just more. And it leaves me wanting even MORE. But it’s not really a feeling of hunger, but more like me craving something salty! I usually get pretty ‘hungry’ after dinner and even dessert isn’t enough. So I eat leftovers pretty late at night, which sometimes is annoying to me, but even more to my boyfriend, who is actually trying to eat less. I really don’t get why and how I can eat so much, I never gain any weight, I have been really skinny all my life, so it’s very strange to me. I also feel very bored or anxious when I get the ‘hunger’ and feel like I should eat just to keep myself busy. So now I just make sure I have foods that I can eat when I get the cravings; leftovers, eggs, bread with some sort of spread etc. this way I can’t get cranky or bored and be happy!:P
    I

  28. July 8, 2011 6:23 pm

    I too can relate to this post and is something i struggle with, i feel that sometimes i underestimate how much food our bodies really need. Im starting to realize that our bodies are truly amazing “machines” that need fuel and when it doesn’t get it it smply cannot be as efficient as it could be. That’swhen i start to feel stressed, tired, irritable too!
    I guess my only advice is to try and listen to your inner self – it won’t steer you wrong – i promise! P.s. Your blueberry parfait looks wonderful as does your english muffins with avocado and cream cheese!

  29. July 8, 2011 6:38 pm

    I can totally relate. There are times when I know I am reallly hungry — my stomach is growling and my body is just screaming “FEED ME”. I try to never get to that point. But regular old hunger? I’m not sure. Some days I eat a lot. Some days, not so much. It all depends on how busy I am — at work or at home, so I usually tell myself that I’m not hungry, that I”m just bored.

    It is such a inner battle sometimes, and it sounds like it is that way for you too. I have no advice, except to really listen to your gut — to me if you are questioning “am I really hungry?” then the answer is probably no. But I could be wrong!

  30. July 8, 2011 6:40 pm

    Girl I can relate to every word of this! Sometimes I really wonder whether eating intuitively is enough… and so part of me thinks maybe I should count calories for a week or so and see if it matches up with my EER (estimated energy requirement). But then the other part of me thinks that could just be asking for trouble. I would hate to stir up food issues that have long been laid to rest. So for now I’m just content with continuing to honour my hunger, even if it seems out of control. As long as my clothes fit, I know I’m doing it right. 😛

  31. July 8, 2011 6:41 pm

    It took a long time, but I think I’ve finally found the balance of being able to eat whenever I need to. And I’ll be sure to eat before leaving the house for a few hours if I know I’ll be hungry..even if I’m not that hungry before leaving. I really, really, really hate being hungry! No clue how I stood starving myself a few years ago.

  32. jen permalink
    July 8, 2011 6:43 pm

    I can completely relate to this! It’s the worst internal struggle for me right now. I wish I had some words of advice but I think the idea of adding more food and seeing what happens sounds like the most reasonable and logical thing to do.
    You truly are an inspiration to me 🙂 I’ve been struggling with an ED for far too many years and I’m beginning to realize that there is soooo much more to life than being a certain # on the scale…. I know its going to be a long process to actually be ok and feel ok at a higher weight, but I’m realizing it has to be better than living like this. Thank you for sharing your journey and Yummy eats 🙂

  33. July 8, 2011 7:01 pm

    Totaly understand cha! when I work out more, my hungry is OUT. of control, (even sometimes when I dont work out at all!) I am still learning to realized that its okay when your hungry all the time. You are NOT a freak girl! 🙂

  34. July 8, 2011 7:01 pm

    Yes – I can relate!! Sometimes it’s frustrating for me because I rarely have “hunger pangs,” or a grumbly stomach…but rather, just start feeling like I’m dragging and grumpy. I’m not sure if that’s a good or a bad thing…but it’s how I am a lot of times! Sometimes I’d wish I had hunger pangs instead. First I get draggy, and then when I start thinking snarky things or almost give lip to my boss I know it’s time to eat! haha.
    …now that I think about it, it’s only at work when I get like that…when I’m at home I usually do notice my stomach start to complain. Huh…maybe I’m just so focused @ work that I don’t even notice…

    …mand, you’re making me have some epiphanies here! haha.

    Don’t worry, though – you’ll figure it out soon 🙂 The fun thing about experimenting is that you learn about yourself either way. I’m sure with all the strength training you’ve been doing lately, your metabolism is on fire! Just another thought, too – though I know this could be a bad suggestion if you have the potential to get obsessive with it…but are you paying attention to your servings and making sure you’re giving yourself enough? I know for a little while after I started running, I started measuring to make sure I was giving myself big enough portions. Turns out what I was eyeballing as a fair amount was really less than I was intending to give myself for a snack or meal. I try to go by “how I feel” – eat when I’m hungry, stop when I’m full – but often I would be full, just not for very long!

  35. July 8, 2011 7:02 pm

    I’ve been thinking about this post more…I think it’s REALLY important to not say, “I eat so much”. Honestly, every time I catch myself saying that I know it’s my ED talking. I correct myself and say, “I eat what my body needs and wants”. It is not “so much” or “too much”. It’s also important to recognize their may be many bloggers who eat more then you and saying you “eat like a horse” may make them feel bad. Ya know? That is obviously not an attack on your dear, you know I love ya! I just think its something you should look into….when you do your daily posts and eats I never think, “wow that girl eats a lot”. Sometimes I think, “she still eats on the lighter side” if anything!! I’m not judging you or saying anything bad about you. I’m just saying that maybe you could have a warped perception still of what is healthy for your body? I could be wrong though? What do I know?! haha

    xxo

    • July 8, 2011 7:20 pm

      You do bring up a lot of good points, hun, especially about saying “I eat what my body needs and wants” – I’m definitely gonna have to start saying that to myself.

    • July 9, 2011 3:36 am

      I have to agree with Dana: I’ve never read a post of yours and thought that it looked like a lot of food, particularly with someone with a history of EDs. You might eat a lot of times during the day, but the actual portions are very small, relative to sizes of spoons and dishes as I can tell. This contrasts with someone like me, who may eat less times during a day but has MONSTER portions that fit in a huge dish (or dishes!)

      I do definitely feel bad when i see people saying they eat like a horse or eat SO much because I know I get through a lot more than that…but that’s my problem in terms of a comparison thing! I’m just saying that, yes I think you probably are hungry because you’re a little and often person, which is fine, but perhaps things need to be a little less ‘little’ and a little more ‘often’ 😉

      Love your blog: I’ve only just realised this was ‘you’ as I read Seek ever since you started writing there.

      xxx

      • Marie permalink
        July 9, 2011 6:12 am

        I agree with Dana and Jessica!

  36. July 8, 2011 7:13 pm

    Girl, I feel the same way. Lately, I have been so hungry. I thought it was boredom or maybe “that time of the month” but my stomach is just craving…something! I think it’s natural but I have been feeling the same kind of guilt. If you figure it out let me know, I felt like a solo freak-show!

  37. July 8, 2011 7:16 pm

    My mind tells me to keep eating a lot. My stomach feels full and I know I’m full, but my mind is like, “Just another bite.” I don’t know really.

  38. July 8, 2011 7:25 pm

    Hunger is a temperamental beast, isn’t it? You would think it would be so simple, but if I know if I don’t have the ‘typical’ signs of hunger like the gnawing in my stomach and light-headedness, then I start to go through this tug of war with myself. Have you ever read Intuitive Eating? If I recall correctly, they talk in there about how to identify hunger, and how there are some people (most men I’ve known come to mind) who never have to second guess themselves. They know when they are hungry, they eat until they are full and then they stop. I find it fascinating, but of course it’s a skill we all have. I think the fact that they have to have a section on identifying your hunger is a testament to how difficult it can be for those of us who have fought our natural instincts in the past. I think it’s part of the process of healing. I personally have been ‘recovered’ for a decade and I still struggle from time to time.

    What’s finally worked best for me is to increase the size of my meals and stop snacking as much. Of course the solution is different for everyone, but I found that the grazing (which I did for about 15 years!) was leaving me with this low-level hunger all the time. I didn’t realise that at the time though, and I just kept lamenting, “Why am I so hungry all the time????” I thought that I couldn’t eat big meals because of my sensitive stomach, but after about 6 or 8 weeks the feeling of being overly full from a normal sized meal went away and I adjusted to 3 squares + a snack when I am hungry. Worked for me, anyway!

  39. July 8, 2011 7:27 pm

    My advice to you is that if you want food, then eat it. Your body is telling you something, whether or not you realize it. Our hormone balances, our moods, our overall energy…are all affected by what and how much we eat. Your stomach won’t always grumble. Actually, I’ve read a lot of expert advice that says it’s not healthy to even let your body reach that stage. Point is, your stomach isn’t always going to sound like a growling lion when it wants food. You might get lightheaded or a tad nauseous, or even shaky if your blood pressure is too low. Maybe you’ll just become a bitch. We’ve definitely all been there! I think people have wrapped their heads (too tightly, in my opinion) around the idea that eating without feeling a physical pain for food is wrong, and worthy of guilt, because you must not be actually “hungry” if you don’t feel that gurgle. Wrong. So wrong. Don’t deny yourself an extra snack if you want it, or stop yourself from getting seconds if you simply “feel” like more food. Your body is making you feel that way. That’s what true “intuitive eating” is. Honoring those feelings. That’s your body speaking to you. Listen to it! 🙂

  40. beckafly permalink
    July 8, 2011 7:45 pm

    I can relate and it looks like a lot of people have the same thing. There are times when I don’t feel hungry, but my mind is screaming at me to eat. From what my nutritionist has told me and others, it means you’re lacking something or didn’t get the right protein. I know I experienced it a lot when I was gaining weight. It’s your bodies way of telling you you need to eat more. I’ve found just eating a little extra calms my mind down and even my stomach (odd?). Just trust your body, as my nutritionist said “Your body will never lead you wrong.

  41. Kaila @healthyhelperblog! permalink
    July 8, 2011 7:46 pm

    I know what ya mean. Sometimes its hard to tell if I’m hungry or just bored. And its weird….because anytime I don’t feel well, eating something automatically makes me feel better….even if I just ate a little earlier! Its crazy how are bodies work….but I think if we just try to listen to them as best we can and “honor” them as you said, then every thing will turn out okay! Nobodies perfect and our bodies don’t expect us to be.

  42. nicole permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:05 pm

    I can definitely relate — it’s like a feeling of being unsatisfied (with what you’ve eaten) and you have some craving you can’t pinpoint because you just think about food, food, food. For me, this happens when I ate less than I probably should have for the few days before the day I feel like this.

    And judging from the food you eat, it seems like it’s mainly fruits and veggies and some protein in the morning, but almost no carbs like bread or an actual pizza crust… So maybe if you added a complex carb to one of your meals you’d feel more satisfied? Good luck!!!

  43. July 8, 2011 8:11 pm

    Happy weekend love : )

    I know I have probably said this before but your photos are ALWAYS amazing, I need your skills! What camera and lens do you have? I just am always in love with the photos, makes me want to eat your parfait you have here through the screen! lol!

    Hunger is such a little devil : ) I just try to always listen to my body, sometimes I am hungrier on days I work out hard, less other days, when pms, I am a hungry hippo, lol! I hope you figure it out, and I know you will : ) us bloggers can give you beautiful advice but you will figure out what to do and what your body is saying : )

    Love you!!!

  44. Katherine permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:18 pm

    I am glad you can understand what is going on at least.

  45. July 8, 2011 8:31 pm

    I can totally relate to this. I always get this fear that I’m not really hungry, I just want to eat. But why would I want to eat if I’m not hungry? Luckily I’ve gotten better. A lot of times I feel like I’m supposed to be hungry at certain times of day, but I’m really trying to let go of that and just eat when my body tells me it’s ready. It’s definitely weird when you have those days when all you want to do is eat, but there are also (less frequent) days when you don’t feel like eating at all. I have come to the conclusion that they just balance. Yesterday I ate dinner at 4:30, and I was so glad I didn’t force myself to wait because I would have become a nasty little *insert word of choice here*. I feel soooo much better and have way more energy this way, but my body hasn’t changed in any negative way… trusting yourself is hard, but so worth it and I think we all struggle with it!

  46. July 8, 2011 8:37 pm

    Absolutely relate. My stomach isn’t usually too “hungry” when I’m hungry. I start getting the symptoms you listed above… faintness, irritability, light headed. It’s not fun.

  47. Evan permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:37 pm

    If you find yourself feeling hungry a lot, chances are that it’s genuine hunger, which is so, so, SO normal in a body that’s been deprived. But! Perhaps mixing up your days in unexpected ways – catching up with a friend you haven’t seen in a while, trying a new workout class, checking out some new places to shop on your errands, going out with some girlfriends when your first instinct is to stay in – maybe these things will help to fill you up in ways that are less tangible. Sometimes, I feel the way you do, and a combination of eating more, eating in varied ways, and seeking adventure help me to feel peaceful again.

    • July 9, 2011 12:47 am

      i totally second what evan said – trying to get out and maybe even eating out might help you fill your hunger in varying ways!

  48. Caitlin permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:38 pm

    The second-guessing your hunger that you have is something I can completely relate with! I hate not feeling the tell-tale stomach rumblings, but still knowing that I am hungry and do need nutrients and energy, because those rumblings reassure me that it’s okay to have a snack or a meal soon after I already had eaten. I admire you for honoring your hunger though – something I am still working on as well!

  49. canttweetitdonteatit permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:41 pm

    It’s like you read my mind!!!!! I feel like I never stop eating, yet I get those same symptoms. For instance, today I never once felt stomache-grumbly hungry, yet I couldn’t stop eating! I wasn’t bored at all, but I was either grumpy or could not stop thinking about food. Ugh, it’s so frustrating!

  50. Lilly permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:43 pm

    I am so glad you posted about this, and from the comments it seems as though so many people can relate too! One problem I have is that I ADORE fruits and veggies, which are of course great, but sometimes I fill up on them but then get hungry again pretty soon. I always go by the “rule” of eating when I am hungry, but sometimes I know I need to eat even before/ or if I don’t get exact hunger pains. Maybe try playing around with the types of food you eat, some people need more grains or protein, adding more beans, pastas, or rice to meals. Also nuts are great since they pack a big punch, if I ever get to too hungry I eat a handful of nuts while prepping my meal, I used to turn to fruit to do that but realized that the nuts were giving me more “value” for the same amount of time/size and held me over longer. I think as long as you continue to be aware of your body, which it seems like you are pro at, and play around with foods, times, amounts, you will find your balance that works for YOU – no matter how much more or less it is then another person.

  51. sunshinevegan permalink
    July 8, 2011 8:56 pm

    Wow this sounds like me! Hah. Always making sure I get abgood breakfas helps witht he issue. If I go run or workout in the morning I have 2 breakfasts. One pre workout and one after! I sometimes worry that I’m not really hungry and just eating cause I’m bored anf giving myself too much though, especially when I’m alone. When I get hungry I just feel awful though. My head pounds, I feel dizzy, weak and irritable. When I get like that I can tell that I need a snack! Like ASAP 🙂

  52. July 8, 2011 10:13 pm

    I react the same way when I’m hungry! Honestly, i get sooooo lethargic and moody. So, as a result, I’ve learned to really plan out my eating – snacking throughout the day, etc. It’s taken a while to perfect though!

  53. July 8, 2011 10:18 pm

    I can DEFINITELY relate to this! It happens to me most days. Sometimes I simply can’t believe I eat that much food and still manage to be hungry after about 50 minutes of having lunch! Having a good breakfast has definitely helped; getting a big amount of calories at breakfast somehow helps me stay satisfied!

  54. July 8, 2011 10:18 pm

    I know EXACTLY what you mean. Back in the day when I was running 20 plus miles a week and eating NOT near enough, I would feel awful. I wouldn’t always feel hunger pains persay but I felt just blah.. and I was SO grumpy. And the grumpiness still holds true. If I’m hungry and you are between me and my food, watch out!!!

  55. July 8, 2011 10:28 pm

    I can totally relate! I seem to be unable to understand that yes, my body does know better than I do what I need! Simple concept, but listening to it can be so so hard :/ We will get there though 🙂

  56. Lenna (veganlenna) permalink
    July 8, 2011 11:32 pm

    Hunger is such a strange feeling! Sometimes I can go through the whole day without feeling it, other days I am hungry an hour after eating a huge bowl of oatmeal with so many toppings that it feels like eating 2000 calories in one sitting! I have no problem with eating 2000 calories at all, but I wouldn´t mind if it left me full for at least 3 hours… I experience a lot of those feelings you described, irritability, tiredness, moodiness, slight hyperactivity…I don´t like these feelings, but it is sometimes really hard to distinguish between feelings related to hunger and those related to something else. I just try to eat regulary and if I experience any strange symptoms, I try to stop for a while and remember what my day was like, what was I doing and thinking and try to find some clues to my current state of mind..

  57. July 8, 2011 11:54 pm

    I’m in the same boat, I’m hungry an hour aftersome meals, & can only think of food.
    I know for myself that I need to increase my intake, and include more fats in my diet.

  58. July 9, 2011 12:53 am

    thanks for being so honest and sharing about this! i think that the reason that most health bloggers can relate to this is because we are all very acutely aware of our hunger and even begin to question it sometime. but really, it sounds like you know what you should do – my mantra is “go with your gut” – figuratively and literally. you know how your mood/emotional life is being affected, and you seem to know how to remedy that too. i know for myself personally, the last thing i want is for food to get in the way of emotional and mental health, which is probably the most precious thing to me right now. i know it’s hard when you think there is a certain amount you should be eating or cannot wrap your head around the amount of food your body may require, but if you step back for a second, maybe it would be good to ask yourself if it’s worth the mental effort/dilemma thinking about the hunger, and just eating. what most people said about lifting weights is probably true – because i know whenever i do strength-training i am definitely hungrier. and for myself, ive come to a point where i realize i do not want food or hunger to get in the way of my living life – if it means i’m going to be a bit heavier but can actually be happy and social all the time, then so be it!

    • July 9, 2011 1:58 pm

      Thank you for this, girl. Sometimes I need to remember how much life sucks when a lack of food gets in the way, and if I think that might be the case, then I shouldn’t spend so much time deliberating and just do it. Love you ❤

  59. July 9, 2011 12:57 am

    I can relate too, sometimes I will often feel hungry an hour or so after a meal and other days I will not feel hungry at all. I guess it is challenging to listen to my body. My dietican told me that it can take up to two years for your body to be able to regonise hunger signals again.

  60. Rose permalink
    July 9, 2011 1:07 am

    I know it’s much more easier said than done, but if you truely think that it’s hunger and not just a random feeling or just being bored than you should just listen to your body and give it the nutrition it needs. Sometimes your body feels like it needs more fuel and that’s okay. sometimes it gets tired of a certain amount and doesn’t think that it’s enough. Try eating an extra snack or having a little more at meals and then see how you feel after 🙂

  61. July 9, 2011 2:10 am

    I think if your feeling hungry, eating and not gaining weight, then you must be doing something right! It really does sound like you have a pretty good handle on your bodies signals, and FYI, I find you a total inspiration in terms of seeing how much you eat, its actually really been helping me to get a better handle on my own eating 🙂

  62. July 9, 2011 4:36 am

    Girl, I’m right there with ya! I need food or else I become a different person. I can’t concentrate on anything and all I can think about is what I want to eat. But still…sometimes I can’t help but deny my hunger. I feel the hungry, but I disregard it as wanting to eat from boredom. And sometimes I’m hungry because I lack water. So i guess I’m still experimenting as well 🙂

  63. July 9, 2011 4:40 am

    First of all, I think it is so great that you even allow yourself to think that the problem might be that you eat too little. Its no secret that Im not in tune with my hunger signals, and I always waint until my tummy REALLY tells me to eat. But, as you say, cranky-ness, sadness, low energy, cravings etc are also strong hunger-signals! Im working on eating even when Im not complitely empty in my tummy!
    I hope you figure things out soon Amanda! And Im sure you will- no one is better at hunger-honoring than you!! 😉
    Hugs

  64. allthingswholesome permalink
    July 9, 2011 5:33 am

    you my dear are not a freak of nature. Everyones hunger signals are totally different and what you experience one day, you may not another. its odd I sometimes get a really bad headache and my eyes hurt yet my stomach isnt growling but as soon as i eat i feel better. Its so odd.
    But if your symptoms disappear after eating just keep nourishing your body as and when it wants it, even if its more regular than usual, it could just mean you are being more active, without realizing.

    P.s baked apple oatmeal is so good right.

    Have a wonderful day, love Jess. xx

  65. July 9, 2011 7:48 am

    Oh you are soo not alone! I suffer from the exact same thing! I can have eaten a big meal 2hrs before and be irritable 2hours later, but not hungry as such – yet food can make me feel better. Then another day, I could go 5hrs and be fine and chipper! The lack of consistency in my hunger signals always throws me off..like if a meal kept kept me full for 3hours one day, why is it only working for 1.5hours today? Confusing. I wish I had the answers – let me know if you get anything super useful said!

  66. July 9, 2011 8:08 am

    I can totally relate! Some days I’m a hungry beast and eat everything is sight and other times I am not hungry at all. I get freaked out about both circumstances, because I’m always afraid I undereat with my exersize schedule, but sometimes I have the feeling I eat too much for my daily activities. I think listening to your hunger is the only right thing to do. (I wish I could speak in Dutch to you, because then I can explain much, much more) I experience multiple types of hunger, like; growling stomach (usually the case), being lightheaded, getting grumpy, stomach pains, distraction, getting shaky and some other signs. Don’t worry about eating so much, because A; youre diet is the most healthy as can be and B; you probably need it!
    I wish I had the answer to your questions, but this is all I can say!

  67. July 9, 2011 10:15 am

    I know exactly what you mean. Determining if I’m truly hungry or not is extremely hard for me. Like evening snacks: I just had dinner, am I really hungry again? Do I really need more, or am I just bored? So HARD.

    A good way to deal with this (that I should use more often!) is when you think you’re hungry, try journaling for a while. Are you mostly writing about food, etc, or are you writing about how angry you are that you didn’t get the job you wanted, or how sad you are that your cat died, etc… It might help you figure out if you’re eating emotionally or out of true physical hunger.

    Sounds to me like you truly are hungry. Have you been lifting more lately, or eating less dense foods? Sometimes are bodies are just off and need more food. You don’t need to be running a marathon to need to eat more 😉

    • July 9, 2011 2:14 pm

      I’m thinking it’s probably real hunger as well, especially because I’ve never really been an emotional eater. I did start lifting a bit more lately, which would probably explain it… so I’m just going to go with eating more and stop thinking about it so much.

  68. July 9, 2011 10:19 am

    My husband gets so moody when he’s hungry!! So when we are out running around all day I always pack snacks and get nuts in my car to avoid hunger moods!

  69. July 9, 2011 10:21 am

    I have trouble recognizing hunger sometimes too. It can be frustrating, when your like ” I just an elephant two hours ago, how on earth could I be hungry!?”

    For me, it varies by day. Somedays I have absolutely no appetite at all and I have to remind myself that I should probably eat something. Others, all I can think about is food and eating because I’m sooo hungry! It sucks with work and stuff, because I’ll pack an average-sized lunch and by the time I get home I’m starving.

  70. July 9, 2011 11:39 am

    thank you for being freaking amazing and awesome!

  71. July 9, 2011 12:17 pm

    I used to have a simlar problem and I realized that my hunger wasn’t really hunger but problems with my digestive system. After seeing a number of doctors and homeopaths I think my problems have cleared up and my appetite is back to normal. Or less than normal even. But who really knows what normal is anymore??

  72. Jacqui permalink
    July 9, 2011 1:08 pm

    Hi –

    One thing I noticed about your meals (please know I love what you eat and think you do a great job of eating often and well) is that they are very much the same all of the time. Maybe your body is craving variety? I also noticed that when I increased carbs at all of my meals I felt better-sometimes my hunger means for me that I need more variety and more dense foods as opposed to more food….

    • July 9, 2011 2:15 pm

      I thought maybe I was just getting bored with my eats too, but when I tried eating something different, it just seemed like I was even less satisfied. So frustrating.

  73. July 9, 2011 2:40 pm

    Beautiful Amanda,
    you are amazing for being so determined to treat your body the best way possible, even though that means your mind must go through anxiety. Know that I am beyond proud of you for all the steps you’ve taken in recovery, and how you continue to protect your precious health.

    As other people have mentioned, eating ” a lot” can at times be a subjective and mental feeling, not necessarily grounded in reality when considering how much your body actually needs. It is extremely difficult to know how much to eat after all these years with restricting, but do not loose hope because you are so well on your way. I know you and your body will reach a peaceful state soon.
    I have never shared your opinion of that you eat a lot, to be quite honest ( though I am no expert ). If you compared your meals with mine, which we are not actually supposed to do!, you would find that you don’t eat a lot at all. The same goes with the way I ate before I got sick too. There have been times where I’ve been concerned with especially lunches and dinners, as these seem a bit on the light side when considering how active you are. There is a lot of fruits and veggies in your diet, which is positive, but perhaps you should listen to those who encourage you to try cutting down on it and replace them with more substantial food. Not stop eating it of course, but just eat more calorie- dense food. Cheese, full- fat yoghurts, bread, pasta . . .
    Something that works for me is to eat more carbs and fat, and less protein as I find that the latter simply lack the ability to satisfy my body. At times food high in protein, such as yoghurt, can actually leave me feeling even more hungry if not combined with carbs and fat. Your body might simply be one of those who need quite the amount of calorie- dense food to maintain a healthy weight and mind, no shame in that.

    Stay strong, my friend. Hope you don’t find my concerns offensive. You know I love you and care deeply about you. What I want for you is nothing but the best.

  74. July 9, 2011 3:00 pm

    I can relate. There I often dont feel *hungry* but if I’m not careful about eating enough, I’ll get really irritable and anxious. It used to be bad enough that I would get really shaky, mean and panicky when I was a teenager if my blood sugar was too low.

  75. July 9, 2011 3:01 pm

    I’m sorry you aren’t feeling 100%. I usually blame irritability and moodiness, inability to concentrate or focus, feeling heavy and fatigued, headaches, and digestive complaints on hormones. I guess it’s sort of the same yet completely different for everyone.

  76. runningonapples permalink
    July 9, 2011 4:23 pm

    I’ve gotten in the bad habit of convincing myself that I’m not hungry when I think about food and that I’m just bored. Unfortunately this makes me act like a total irritable jerk, which then leads me on a darker path and makes me feel even worse about myself.
    It’s really a vicious cycle, and I wish it would stop.

  77. July 10, 2011 12:50 am

    Amanda, I honestly don’t think you ”eat like a horse”! Maybe you do eat often, but from your posts/pictures it seems that your portions are very little, besides being on a lighter side. So maybe you actually just aren’t eating enough (calorie-wise) and that’s why you’re hungry so often …

    • July 10, 2011 6:23 am

      Just please keep in mind that a big portion of what I eat never makes it onto the blog, especially since I never post my night time snacks, and I plate my meals for visual appeal when I’m taking pictures, not to accurately represent what I eat 🙂

      • July 10, 2011 1:46 pm

        Oh, I definitely didn’t mean to ”accuse” you of eating too little, I just thought you might want to reconsider it as a possibility. 😉

  78. Alexa permalink
    July 10, 2011 11:12 am

    Hi Amanda!

    If you don’t mind, as a fellow reader, I’d just like to add a few of my own observations. I’ve been there. I can absolutely relate to what you are experiencing. So, as others have mentioned, I think the reason so many ‘healthy food bloggers’ struggle with the ‘full but not mentally full’ feelings, is the high amount of fiber that is being eaten; all day, every day. Veggies, fruit, oatmeal, etc. While they are needed, and do offer substantial satiety and nutrients, for a recovering eating disorder, they are ‘filler.’ For example, back in the day, I would fill-up on water-loaded vegetables and a plain salad for dinner (my only meal of the day) and somehow, it kept me full until the next morning. Yikes! Yet, afterward, I would chew gum all night, while thinking of food, feeling irritable, etc. But…no hunger or rumbling tummy.

    Anyways, fast-forward years later, my lovely nutritionist, whom I trusted my life with, always praised the value of fun foods. Foods that trigger a feel-good emotion; youth, comfort, friends or family, holiday, etc. When I was on a high-calorie meal plan, I was encouraged to eat 2 fun foods a day (dessert not included!) but my point is, throughout my weight restoration journey, fun foods were always welcomed, and celebrated.

    I’m not saying this will be a cure-all, ‘just eat a fun food everyday!’ but I really think the addition of more variety, less fiber/more density, and perhaps some meals outside of the comfort of your own kitchen…would put your mind at ease.Try going to a bakery for a muffin! You love muffins, right? Or, meeting a friend for dinner at a new restaurant. What about a Sunday brunch? I love brunch; a perfect time to catch up with friends at a leisurely pace before a full week of activities/work. You can still order something safe (or not!) but most times, especially as a recovering anorexic, food is really is more about the mental and emotional state, than the physical state. Also, as a side note, when I go out, I like to order what I would never make at home myself. Salads for always delicious, but…why not try something new, or enjoyable?

    Just some food for thought. Wishing you all the best, and I look forward to reading more.

    Best,
    Alexa

  79. July 10, 2011 10:31 pm

    I know how you feel! I am striving to find when I’m hungry too! I used to eat ALL day, but now I’m realizing that I was never hungry when I ate — I just ate to eat. So now, I’m really focusing on what my body is saying — eating when IT says it’s hungry.

  80. Erica permalink
    July 11, 2011 8:12 am

    Amanda

    Holy Hazelnuts let me just first say that I LOVE your honest personality and AWESOME blog! Second, I can SOOOOO relate. It has been something I have really been struggling with lately. I am hungry all. the. time. And it honestly feels like I cannot be satiated. I will eat a meal and literally be hungry 30-90 minutes later. It is so frustrating because I like you, cannot think of anything besides food when I am hungry. It is making me miserable and very anti-social. I eat so so so much and I can’t imagine that I need more. I do exercise a lot but I compensate that with eating and am STILL hungry. Ah so frustrating. I don’t know what to do!

  81. July 12, 2011 8:46 am

    Yeah I relate!!! I find that always a few days after I bump up my workouts I’ll start to get really hungry, more so than usual. Also sometimes it helps to just grab a piece of fruit whenever I get that peckishness.

  82. Christine permalink
    July 12, 2011 9:14 pm

    I have been having the same problem lately! If anything ever since I started my new job for the summer I haven’t had the energy to workout as much as I am used to and yet I have been more hungrier than usual…I try my hardest to honor my hunger but like you sometimes I just wonder if I really am as hungry as I feel. Im not sure about you but I think a lot of those feelings come from years of thinking that the less I eat the “healthier” I am …Heres hoping that the more we continue to listen to our bodies the more comfortable it will become 🙂

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